Cameran Chrowe’s “I wish nonsense”
so, i have a pencil. its very bored.
i wish i could take this pencil and shove it down your fucking throat.
i wish i had the balls to do some shit like that to you.
but i don’t.
its bullshit though because i used to.
i used to have balls that didn’t end.
i wish i never lost them.
i’ve lost a lot of things.
i lost my favorite fucking soccer ball the summer of third grade.
i gave up on playing.
the winter of fifth grade, i left my barbie swimsuit in the changing room at the YMCA.
damnit, i still miss that.
i only got to wear it three times.
fuck that shit
whats worse than loosing things is having them stolen.
i had a few things stolen.
i wish that never happened.
but wishing things is stupid
wishing never got shit accomplished
I’ve got to start moving
you can’t enjoy a fucking sunset if you’re spinning around in circles giving yourself motion sickness
you can’t enjoy a fucking sunrise if you’re laying in your bed not doing shit
i wish i knew some things
i wish i knew how to stop this damn wishing
im a little kid at heart
i wish i knew what the fuck was wrong with these motherfuckers who get tripped up over small shit yet try to tell other motherfuckers to keep walking in straight lines
i’ve decided im a caring person
that is the conclusion i’ve come to
i care about myself a lot
i wish i cared for you enough to shove this bloody pencil in your neck to take away the pain that troubles you
but i don’t